I haven't been able to just lay down and fall asleep in over two years. My mind just won't stop. I have tried to figure out why, no problems weighing me down, nothing that I needed to remember to do before I went to bed or had to remember on my way out the door the next day. It isn't because I had a good day or a bad day, it just is. When this problem first started it was for a couple days in a row, then for a couple weeks and then for about 3 months at a time, then it would go away till about the same time the following year. Then it was just always there. Went to the doctor, their answer? DRUGS. OK, so I take them, every day. I have tried to go to sleep without them, the last time was for two weeks, I almost lost every friend I had. I didn't even like being around me, so here I am, on drugs.
It occurred to me the other day that my days are so busy that I don't get to my quiet time until just before I go to sleep. I get all I can get done in a day, take my sleeping pill and then open my Bible! I read the devotionals, have a quick conversation with God and then I go to sleep. That's not the way it is supposed to be, we are supposed to give God our firsts, not our lasts. The Bible says, actually God says "Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28 There it is, in plain English. Almost everything in the Bible is in plain English, we just can't accept the fact that it is that easy.
So, here is what I am going to do, tomorrow, I am going to get up early (please let me sleep tonight so I can) and give Him my first part of the day instead of the last. It certainly can't hurt. A very good friend of mine said once that he would rather be sleep deprived rather than God deprived, I should have listened.
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